I always believed I was well rounded, knew what I was doing. Knew the full difference between wrong and right.
I see now that I'm not so perfect..
I'm impulsive. I'm not one for having guilt. I have a short temper. I make excuses. I'm lazy & procrastinate. I'm okay with things most people are against.
I don't really understand why, it's just how I am and I don't like it.
I hurt people and myself with my thought process.
For example, I don't believe a kiss is a big deal. Most people do and if you were to kiss more than one person just because, they would be against it. While I see nothing wrong with it depending on how attached you are.
Example 2, I don't think sex is a big deal. I do think you should have feelings for the person before doing it, but I don't think you need to wait til marriage and i haven't ever valued it.
I don't know if this is because I was never taught that it was a big deal, or I just grew up without that basis. I mean, I was kissing boys in grade 1 and my family isn't religious by any means, I haven't grown up with anyone telling me I should wait, or that it's a special thing.
But this bugs me because I hurt people or I get judged.
