Secret:

"Today, you should be coming home from Iraq and we should be reuniting.

But insted I sat at your grave and talked to you and cried all day."

I hate when things don't turn out like you thought they would. When you think they will come back, and they don't. Or even when someone tells you something you didn't expect that hurts you. Like when my boyfriend at the time told me he was going into the army next year it startled me, and i told him no instantly. I didn't expect that idea and scared me. I didn't want to lose him. And then again when someone I loved moved across the country and I realized he's never coming back, it hurt me.

The only thing I guess I could say is that you need to keep an open mind. Look at all options of how things may turn out. Then you can't be extremely disappointed. Things happen like this all the time, it hurts, and it sucks. You also got to think, everything happens for a reason. Maybe what happened isn't good, obviously like the one you love not coming home. But it has a reason, a meaning or a lesson.